As I sat on the couch at my best friends' house this evening, watching one of them pack for an upcoming trip, I said two things that have stuck in my mind for the past few hours: "I can't believe Emily has been dead for two years now." "It feels like I've lived an...
During my therapy session on Friday, I told my therapist I needed us to figure out "what the hell is wrong with me." I had a lengthy list of symptoms and emotions I have felt over the past two weeks, along with potential "causes." Of course, my therapist quickly...
It has been a rough week. Monday was the two year anniversary of Emily and I's engagement, and we're officially in October. On top of that, today is a special event: one of Emily's closest friends is getting married, and the kids and I are attending the wedding. This...
I am not normally a patient person. In fact, I'd say patience is one of those virtues God forgot to include in my personality when he made me. I struggle to hide surprises, I try hard to do all the things at once whether I can actually handle it or not, and I cringe...
Tonight I'm finally back at my apartment after spending the past two weeks housesitting for a couple who have three dogs and two horses. And, of course, all of the clutter and crap that was here before I left is still lingering. I hate the fact that I live in a messy...
Last night, I attended my church's Maundy Thursday service. This particular service was a first for me, and although I expected it to be a somber event given its focus, I did not anticipate the waves of emotions I experienced multiple times throughout. Each part of...
Today is Saturday, March 23, 2024. It's finally here: the day that would have been our wedding day. It's a day I started dreaming about within the first two months of Emily and I "leveling up" to couple status. And, it's a day Emily likely dreamed about from childhood...
In the sixteen months since Emily died, I've maintained a fairly busy life between a full-time job and several freelance clients. Unfortunately, this means that there's usually one night each week where I just need to relax. To make it interesting for the kids, I've...
Back in January, I went to Chattanooga with Rebecca. It was the first trip I've taken with a romantic partner since Emily's death, which I thought would be weird. For the most part, though, it ended up being a lot of fun. On Saturday evening, we cooked at our Airbnb,...