Grief changed everything I believed. About people. About love. About faith. But lately, I’ve found myself asking a question I thought I had already figured out: What does it actually mean to be a Christian? Not in the way we label ourselves. Not in the way we check a...
Last night, I attended my church's Maundy Thursday service. This particular service was a first for me, and although I expected it to be a somber event given its focus, I did not anticipate the waves of emotions I experienced multiple times throughout. Each part of...
I knew Easter Sunday would be challenging, but I didn't anticipate how deeply every part of this morning's 8:30 am service would affect me. Everything from the prayer to the closing hymn brought on the tears... it was tough. However, the part of worship that moved me...
I've felt a lot of emotions over the past two weeks, but today was the icing on the cake. At 5:00am this morning, my phone started vibrating. I quickly glanced to make sure it wasn't one of my family members or close friends calling, and then I rolled over and went...
I know by now I've mentioned that one of the first things Emily and I bonded over was our mutual love of Grey's Anatomy. It was very much a focal point of our friendship and provided us with an abundance of memes, quotes, and memories to share. By the time 2020 rolled...
As I told the sweet person who called me this afternoon, this week has been tough. On Monday night, I left a friend's house and drove to the spot I used to visit a lot in 2017 and 2018. On Wednesday, I passed out on the couch after I got the kids to bed because I was...
I started this blog to keep Emily alive. As long as we all keep sharing, she will never die.
Last night was the closest I've come to going over the edge since Emily's death. So close, in fact, that just about a dozen steps stood between us. I knew Monday would be hard. I just felt it the moment I woke up — that darkness that has consumed me every day since...
This morning I attended a worship service at the church Emily grew up in. As soon as I entered the sanctuary, I thought about all the other times Emily and I had worshiped there together on weekends we came to visit her parents. It was bittersweet to say the least. As...