Author: musicmaker182
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Because She Fit Right In
Today my family gathered at my parents’ house for a Memorial Day cookout. It’s become somewhat of a tradition: my grandparents come down, my brothers and I (plus our families) all make the drive out there, and we just spend the day together. Although I always appreciate this time with my family, the lack of…
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Because She Was Hypermobile
The morning of April 12 started out like most of my mornings have looked since I’d started sleeping in the bedroom again two weeks prior. I woke up around 6:00am, made my bed, then started my way down the stairs to the middle floor of my three-story townhouse. Unfortunately, I only made it down the…
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Because We Enjoyed Picnics
I’ve decided that Facebook memories are both a blessing and a curse. Most of the time, I love looking back at them because they are usually filled with adorable pictures and videos of the kids or funny stories from my college years that I forgot about. However, many of the ones I’ve encountered over the…
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Because I’m Still Alive
I’m barely breathing, but I’m alive. And for now, that’s going to have to be enough because I don’t have much more to give.
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Because of a Couch
April hit me like a sack of bricks, and I’m just now starting to dig my way out. I knew going into the month that it would be hard, because April 24, 2021 is a day I’ll never forget. It was a day that ended in a very different way than I expected and left…
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Because She Was A Swiftie
Earlier this month, I checked another item off Emily’s bucket list: I saw Taylor Swift live in concert during Night #1 of her three-day run in Nashville’s Nissan Stadium. I was lucky enough to purchase three relatively inexpensive tickets for the 300 level during the pre-sale event back in November (trust me, the five-hour wait…
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Because I Want To Tell Her Story
When Emily died, one of the first promises I made to myself and her was that I’d find ways to keep her spirit alive and continue her story. That’s why this blog exists. It’s also why I made the decision to sign up as a volunteer with Donate Life, a cause very near and dear…
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Because I’ll Always Wonder
Today makes six months without Emily. I’m in disbelief that so much time has passed. It doesn’t seem like it’s been half a year. Yet here we are. I wish I could say that it’s gotten easier, but it hasn’t. I still cry at least once every single day (usually more than that), and my…
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Because She Kept Me Grounded
“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” –Matthew 6:34 I had a lot on my mind this morning. So much so that I woke up at 4:00am thanks to an anxiety attack. Part of it is normal worries like finances, future plans,…
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I See You — A Poem
I see you when I close my eyes.You’re deep within my dreams.For a moment, it seems so real —Your smile, your voice, your carass.And as I feel your body next to mine,I forget that we’re apart.But then my body begins to awaken,And once again, you’re gone.I hear you when the world goes quiet.Your voice sings…